The Summer

We've reached the end of June 2008, the next few months have brought me to who I am today. Not perfect, not by a long shot. But not lost, not anymore. Coming back from the dump I had never been so anxious in my life, well not this kind of anxious. There was no paranoia, no fear, no second thoughts, just one... this summer's gonna be different.
Over the next 2 and a half months I taught canoeing down at the waterfront. I pretty much lived down there, I was there nearly the same amount of time as the lifeguards, the only difference was 1 hour a day I was fooling around while they continued to guard. But the lifeguards deffinitely worked harder than I did, I mean alot of the training for canoeing I was teaching the kids was skimming the surface of real canoeing so it was a moderately easy class to teach, lol the hardest part was just keeping the kids interested and paying attention; which I could not do without the help of two other counselors Candy and Lolly [not their real names; camp names] they were honestly the back bone of each class. The waterfront staff consisted of Crush or Chimes; waterfront directors, Meeko who had been my friend since grade school, Wonder who I had just recently met in the last 2 years, Rogue who'd been a camper for years, and Katie. Those 4 girls were the lifeguards and then me the low man on the totem pole.
Anyway, aside from the waterfront we each had a cabin of our own to take care of as well. I think I had 1 really good cabin this year, in other words 1 cabin that actually enjoyed being around each other. All the other weeks generally each kid was good on his own but together it was absolutley nuts. That summer deffinitely tested my patience far more than any other summer. As well as my leadership skills, which got me ready for the upcoming fall.
As the summer passed by Katie and I had alot of time to just talk, about pretty much everything. From would you rather games to home life to likes/dislikes. I learned so much about her that summer, I fell in love with her that summer. Not on purpose lol; I wasn't searching to fill a whole or replace anyone, in fact I was quite enjoying being single lol. But I was finally listening to God's voice, I was tired of trying to ignore him, in fact I was exhausted. So summer came to an end and we both headed home, but we never stopped talking to each other. In fact now we had even more time to do just that no matter how big a distance was between us. And although some would think otherwise, I am thankful for that distance. During that time apart, I learned more about her than I would have ever done if I were within walking distance of her. And it gave me a chance to teach myself my priorities; one of my flaws in the past was I ripped God out of my relationship. He couldn't seem to fit properly so instead of making the relationship fit to his mould, I gave up. But now at a distance I was and am still learning to mould our relationship to fit to God's standards. And by doing so I'm finally trusting him with everything, it's been hard. But for the first time in a very long time, I'm at peace. I'm no longer afraid of tomorow, because he knows tomorow. I am no longer being hypocritical, I can finally stand by my saying that I've stated year after year... no worries :)
The next 4 months are a very long story, so it'll have to wait until next time lol

God Bless